Never at Home

What does the phrase “Home Sweet Home” evoke for you? Is it your childhood home that your parents still live in? Is it your present home? Is it just being in the presence of a certain family gathering? Maybe a town? Is it wherever you are as long as you are with your spouse or children? Maybe it is simply a meal that reminds you of your home or a loved one.

For me, it is hard to pinpoint a certain “home sweet home” because I have been through so many changes in life and even in and out of families throughout my childhood and into adulthood. I do feel a sense of home in the great state of Texas. Also, Estes Park, CO is a special place that gives a sense of “home sweet home” when I am there. My grandparents lived in Estes, and I have spent much time there in my life. My grandparents are no longer with us, but I always felt at home when I was with them, and now Estes Park feels that way for me.

I have to admit, however, that I truly never feel completely at home. In this world we’re living in today with so many family issues and divorce, and with much turmoil in our country and world, I am probably not alone in this feeling.

While some people may be blessed to have a more continual feeling of “home sweet home”, many of us just grasp moments or periods of it throughout our lives. I am pretty sure that all of us, even those that have a more consistent “home sweet home” situation, struggle with changes and issues at times that leave us feeling uncomfortable and discontented. For example, while your home may seem like an escape from the world, a little oasis of coziness, a place to be yourself and relax…sometimes that can even change with life stresses or quarrels. Also, comfortable friendships can come and go. Sometimes you might feel like you are jockeying for position in a group of “friends” to be noticed or liked. A good friend may move or go down another path. Another way our sense of home gets rocked is by moving to a new town, state, or job. These changes always keep us adjusting and trying to get comfortable again…trying to feel at home. Most of the time, there never seems to be a time of a perfect “at home” feeling. People go on vacations to try to get a temporary slice of perfection, but only to return again to the realities of daily life even in their “home sweet home”.

When we walk with God, we have access to everything we need to be content in this world. But contentment does not mean comfortable and contentment does not mean “home sweet home”. So the questions that I ponder in this article are “Why is walking with God never really comfortable if He is peace, joy, and love?” and “Why do I never feel quite at home no matter where I live and even though I have a wonderful husband to share life with?” And finally, “How can I adjust my expectations of comfort and peace to live in a world where I never feel quite at home as I begin the year 2024?”

As I ponder these questions, I remember that there is a very good explanation for this lack of complete comfortableness, a sense of never being quite at home. The reason is, this place on earth, even the place you think you are mostly at home is not really meant to be your home. While God loves to bless and delight us in various ways, being uncomfortable is also part of His plan for us in this life. It is part of His plan to grow us, shape us, and draw us closer to Him. It is part of His plan to focus us on our true home…our forever future home, Heaven.

“For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is going to be revealed to us.” Romans 8:18

“But our citizenship is in heaven, and from it we await a Savior, the Lord Jesus Christ,” Philippians 3:20

Jesus, himself, who willingly left His perfect home in Heaven and came to our messed up sinful world, knows exactly what it feels like to be uncomfortable and not at home. He was born in a stable, not in a home. He was a sojourner while living in our world literally experiencing every kind of uncomfortable circumstance and every level of loneliness. He was homeless, he was misunderstood, he was mistreated, he was hungry at times, he was tortured, he was rejected, and he was murdered!

“And Jesus said to him, “Foxes have holes, and birds of the air have nests, but the Son of Man has nowhere to lay his head.” Matthew 8:20

Jesus can identify with us, and He has real compassion for what we are going through! But because he loves us so, He knows that we must experience some level of this uncomfortableness to achieve His greater purpose for each of us.

“Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness.  And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.” James 1:2-4

You don’t have to have lived many years and grown in wisdom through life experiences to understand the concept of not being completely at home in this life on earth or to have the understanding of being a sojourner looking forward to your forever future home in Heaven. Kim Jones at age 23 understood this concept very well…

“We’re basically a bunch of backpackers. We are all just travelers. We are all just on a journey, and we’re heading for our Home.” – Kim Jones, July 1999

“Kim was only 23 years old when she went home to be with her Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ, on September 15, 1999, as a result of the shooting at Wedgwood Baptist Church in Fort Worth, Texas, U.S.A. ” – www.thelightstillshines.org

As we begin this new year, we, like Kim can embrace this reality for as long as God gives us breath. We can look forward with hopefulness for a good year of health and prosperity with an adjustment in our expectations as to what that means. Expect to be delighted by the good things God gives you and allows in your life, but also expect to be uncomfortable at times. Remember that being uncomfortable does not have to equal discontentment because this is not our forever home.

 “Not that I am speaking of being in need, for I have learned in whatever situation I am to be content. I know how to be brought low, and I know how to abound. In any and every circumstance, I have learned the secret of facing plenty and hunger, abundance and need.  I can do all things through him who strengthens me.” Philippians 4:11-13

When you feel that uncomfortableness and you don’t feel at home, count it a part of your joy in living for Him knowing He is working all things for your good!

“And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.” Romans 8:28

May your 2024 be filled with God’s abundant blessings in everything He allows in your life! Happy New Year!